Frustration!
Why is life so depressing... Fucked up... useless... I mean why are those people even born who just don't want to live? Like why are we even living this life? What's so interesting about it? There's nothing new! Just the same days. Spending same nights there's nothing new... That old same shit. Fighting all the time and whatever bad happens "you're the one who's always wrong!" Yeahh we're always wrong... Although we didn't do anything but it's our fault?! THIS FUCKIN LIFE I JUST WANNA DIE!!!! BETTER THAN CRYING ALL DAY ALL NIGHT!!! WHY TF WE DON'T DIEEE??? EVERYONE WANTS THAT TOO!!? oh god! Why can't we die? Why isn't he listening I'm praying for death why he doesn't listen?
I know you're going through a really shitty time right now 😔 But it will pass. Do you have friends or nice relatives you could visit and stay with for a while? Sounds like you need a break!
It's a difficult time for you. It sounds like you seem worried and frustrated. God has a purpose for you even if it's unknown to you. I understand you are in a lot of pain that you want to end your life. I hope you keep doing the things which are interesting to you. I hope your heart heals! 🌼